Monday, September 28, 2009

Sadness Time

Got to know this music - Merry Christmas, Mr Lawrence by Sakamoto Ryuichi from a blog and eventhough, had been hearing many times but never know that it was actually from a movie.

I closed my eyes while listening to the music, tears just falling down like rain and memories just started to evoke ... ...

My childhood wasnt a sweet and memorable one and which is why I have always hunger for love in life. However, we have always take things for granted due to our ignorance and started to remorse when we finally realised and understand the truth.

Times really flies and eventhough it has been a decennial but I will never forget about those occurances for getting what I am today - to appreciate and cherish every moments in life. Earnestly, I do hope that he will forgive me and most importantly that he's doing well in his life, living happily with his love and family in God's grace.

We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everywhere and we will never be the same again.

God bless!

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Health Review

Went for the health review in Raffles Hospital today, the result for the liver function test has went back at 2.7 from 3.7 which is within the normal range 1.9-3.6 and the cyst in the abdominal which was found on couple of weeks ago has been disapeared. However, my cancer marker CA125 has climbed up to 63 from 49.8 (Jul 09) and 47.1 (Jun 09) which normal range at 0-35.

Well, my gynae, Dr Karolyn Goh Wee Ching was telling me not to be worried as the blood test was occuring during my menstruation time and it might be inaccurate so will need to take another cancer marker test in another couple of weeks. Despite, liver function test has went back to normal and the cyst which found earlier has disappeared which is a good sign. PTL!

Nevertheless, she needs to refer me to another gynae to diagnose on my kidney this week as there is still traces of blood and red blood cells at 8 (normal range at 0-3) in the urinalysis after several tests.

I can still remember when the doctor has commented in my healthscreen report that I might have cancer and I was terrified at a lost at that time. Bad things have been happening to me this year and I was totally down and depressed when I heard the comments.

As I keep praying to God, I started to realise that things arent that bad at all and we shouldnt base on our own knowledge and understanding to judge and conclude for things that hasnt happened. Sometimes, is the fear that we have which drive us to think negatively and act stupidly. All things happened with a reason and a purpose and maybe God is trying to see how faithful our heart is or He wanted to show us the purpose in life ... ... whichever it is, I have place my life in His hand to decide since He's the creator of my life.

Nevertheless, I asked myself, what if there's a day when I know that I will only have 24 hours left to live and what am I going to do or what have I wanted to fulfill the most? Have I live my life at the fullest purpose. We can only live this life once and there isnt many ten years for us to waste ... ...

Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.
Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live.
Never forget yesterday but always live for today, because we never know what tomorrow can bring or what it could take away ... ...

God bless!

Make A Difference - Pay It Forward

Have watched "Pay It Forward" in Year 2001 and coincidentally, happen to came across this movie again few days ago. It was a movie directed by Mimi Leder and released on March 2001 based on the novel of the same name by Catherine Ryan Hyde. The story is about a 12-years old young boy, Trevor attempts to make the world a better place after his teacher gives him that chance by an intriguing assignment - think of something to change the world and put it into action.

Trevor raised his concepts, conjures the notion of paying a favor not back, but forward:
#1 It has to be something that really helps people.
#2 Something they can't do by themselves.
#3 Do it for them, they do it for three other people.
Good deeds not with payback, but with new good deeds done to three new people and creating a charitable pyramid scheme.

At the movie's beginning, a journalist, Chris was giving a brand new Jaguar S-Type car by a total stranger on the street without in exchange of anything when Chris's old 1965 Ford Mustang was damaged in a car accident. For all of us, including Chris himself, will not be able to accept and understand it with a simple reason that "there's no free lunch in this world".

Quotes:
Trevor: "I guess it's hard for people who are so used to things the way they are - even if they're bad - to change. 'Cause they kind of give up. And when they do, everybody kind of loses."

Is it possible for one idea to change the world? Yes, I believe so but we have been brought up to think negatively and resistance to changes. If only, we are willing to take a step forward without expecting anything in return and we might make a difference around us.

Personally, I love this move as is a movie that connects heart-to-heart. With one simple idea and hope to bring a revolution around the world. Sadly that Trevor died from an inadvertently stabbing during boys fight. Otherwise, he could have done more great works in his life to influence people around him.

THE WAY TO HAPPINESS ...
KEEP OUR HEART FREE FROM HATE,
OUR MIND FREE OF WORRY,
LIVE SIMPLY .... EXPECT LITTLE .... AND GIVE MUCH

So, no matter how busy our world becomes ...
Don't lose sight of the little things we can do to make a difference.

Here's the links:
Movie Trailer

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

The Beatitudes

Happened to view one of the long lost contact friend's blog in his post - New Start posted on July 04, I hope to drop a message here in my post and wish that he might be able to see it since the comment in his post has been closed off.

As a Christian, our life is not a bed of roses and there will be trials, tribulations and temptations in it. Is during the stage of emptiness, doubtness, darkness and helpless that the more we need to hold on to our Heavenly Father and this is when our faith will grow stronger and unshakable.

The function of the mind is to produce beliefs about what we see, hear, feel. Every time we take any of our thoughts (or someone else's thoughts) as THE truth, we judge and with every judgment, we grow further and further from God. We need to learn to come closer to Him through acceptance of other, different from us and perspectives on life. Dont be a puppet dancing to somebody's strings.

"You have heard that it was said 'An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth.' But I tell you not to resist an evil person. But whoever slaps you on your right cheek, turn the other to him also." Mathew 5:38-39

It's not easy and simple to act, the spirit is willing but the human flesh is weak, forgive those who have judged and wronged you and to let go off hurting them back. Instead, try to get him more contracts in your new company, you will be respected as a man of God after you did so. Most importantly, our Heavenly Father will rewards you in heaven for you have obey his commentment to show love to those who is unlove.

Meawhile, let's remind each other again on The Beatitudes:
1) Love our enemies and turn the other cheek. (Mathew 6:27-36)
2) Treat others the way we want to be treated. (Mathew 6:27-36)
3) Dont judge and we wont be judged, dont condemn and we wont be condemned, forgive and we will be forgiven, give and we will receive. (Mathew 6:37-38)
4) Can the blind lead the blind? Disciples are not above their teacher. (Mathew 6:39-40)
5) Remove the log from our own eye before attending to the splinter in our friend's. (Mathew 40-42)
6) A good tree does not produce bad fruit and a bad tree cannot produce good fruit, each tree is known by its fruit. (Mathew 43-45)
7) Love God wholeheartedly and love people fervently. (Mathew 46)
8) Whoever follows these words of God builds on rock and will survive, whoever does not builds on sand and will be destroyed. (Mathew 47-49)

God bless!

Friday, September 18, 2009

Marriage Builders

The divorce rate is extremely high in today's society because husbands and wives supposedly stop loving one another-or they "fall out of love". They may go through a rough patch in their marriage, and they no longer "feel" love for their spouse, so they call it quits. Evidently, their marriage vow of "till death do us part" means they can part at the death of their love for their spouse rather than at their physical death.

There can be a thousand very small and different causes of divorce in a particular case. But given below are the most frequent and most common causes of divorce.

1) Lack of communication or poor communication - Poor or lack of communication between husband and wife is the most common cause of divorce these days. People are not always ready to discuss those small things which doesn't seems to be working out. It results in conflicts and arguing, which ends up at divorce.
2) Lack of commitment for the marriage to make it a success - People are not commited to marriage or their spouses.
3) Not being faithful with spouse - This is another common reason for the marriage break-ups. If you not faithful, it is just time that it is recognized and take care of (in terms of divorce).
4) Financial Reasons - Yes, this is also one of the most common causes of divorce. This happens in two cases. First, when people do not want to discuss their financial situations like debts etc. before marriages. Second, when before marriage, wife thinks that husband should earn for the family and husband thinks that they should both working for the betterment of the family. This results in conflicts later.

Marriages today across the globe are facing more challenges as couples cope with greater demands at work, competing aspirations, and evolving societal values. One concern is that couples today increasingly see divorce as their first option when their marriage hits a rocky patch.

The successful marriage depends on two things; finding the right person and being the right person.

Personally, I do earnestly hope that everyone should have the opportunity to go thru Marriage Builders and understand the importance factors in excelling their marriage through God's purpose.

God bless!